Here is a poem that I wrote many winters ago. It appears in City of Hey Baby
Dead Woman Winter
Button found a dead body this
morning, a homeless woman. He said he had
met her before, a midget, someone you would
remember. I don’t know Button’s
real name, like, we haven’t worked
together long enough. And he doesn’t know
my nick name, like we haven’t known
each other long enough. I can’t know what
that feels like, to go from fretting
about small things like hands rough from the dry,
cold air to actually dying outside on the ground
behind the fire station, people in the city passing on foot,
or in cars and they don’t know that a shelterless
woman lies dying on the street
with no rescue in sight. All doors stay
locked and electricity flickers on and off.
Today, a child-woman came to
work for us. She said she just got engaged.
At 19 years old, she must complete 43 hours
of public service for her crime. She said
she did something really bad but won’t say
what, and I don’t ask. She is writing
letters to someone in jail but not the one
she just got engaged to, who she says
her mother hates. Her boyfriend -fiancé,
who she is forbidden to see, will take care
of her, she chirps, though right now
he lives with his parents. We find windows
for her to wash and floors to sweep–we don’t
want her to work outside in the killer cold,
this tough and vulnerable girl-woman.
Perched in a chair, she babbles, wants
to show me a picture on her phone of her
boyfriend, but I won’t look. I pass to her paper
and clipboard, tell her to list all the things she wanted
to be since a little girl. She litters the paper
with longing: veterinarian, police officer, nurse, baby-
sitter. I wonder how she went from
a baby girl with dreams to a woman who
just wants to be cared for, blankly. I tell her
to pick two careers and write the steps to get
there. To her, I am a torn book, discarded bifocals.
I don’t want her to become
the shunned girlfriend, a divorcee,
a lost wife, a roaming woman, wandering
behind a fire station on a bitter night, all doors
shut tight as the unpredictable
winds slip beneath her coat.